Well That Isn't It

I've been thinking... I know, that usually gets me into trouble.  Either in a panic mode or a 'the heck with that mode'  

I picked up MyNetDiary as it looked most like SparkPeople did and I was looking to go back to what use to work and what I use to be.  Funny, after you are really a senior according to every agency out there, you really can't go back to what worked in your 30s or any other age.  You have to figure out what works or pretty much doesn't in the here and now.  

I tracked water, food and exercise for a couple of weeks.  Really hating it, seeing how I was eating which was a good thing but keeping it up like I use to do as a Weight Watcher.... nope, not able to do that.  

Probably some of it is that by going back to what use to work was the hope that your body would no longer have those new things that are coming up with each birthday.  Sure you should take good care of yourself, make the best choices that work for you and get out there and have a walk, even stretch regularly but you are really not going to look and feel like you did in previous decades and really, that is okay.  

I remember looking at seniors when I was young and thinking - wow, how great it

Isn't that the truth

must be to have it all together and not mess up all the time, not say the wrong thing, not want to eat a box of donuts (or whatever) anymore.  Little did I know that they were no more together than I was really.  One thing I did see when Mom was in a home, it doesn't matter if you were vegan, or keto or intermittent fasting or all organic, you will eat what they give you, when they serve you and there isn't much wiggle room to that.  Sure, it is pretty healthy but it is their menu not yours.  Whatever exercise you did, you will be taking part in theirs.  How ever often you got cleaned up, well, let's just say that will be different too.  It reminded me of a passage in the bible of St. Peter being dressed and taken where he doesn't wish to go.  It was about how his life would end but I think it covers the aged pretty good because it says - 

'I tell you the truth, when you were younger you dressed yourself and went where you wanted; but when you are old you will stretch out your hands, and someone else will dress you and lead you where you do not want to go." Jesus said this to indicate the kind of death by which Peter would glorify God.'  - John 21

Anyway, after the few weeks this month when I got into tracking and logging and all for a time I realized that is really not me anymore and trying to force it made the desire to binge blow right out of proportion so not really the way to go for me at this time in my life (looking closer to 70 than 60) 

So this is what I figured out, I will continue to make the best choices for me which includes a dessert each day.  I will walk each day with hubby and I will stretch often too.  I always keep a water glass beside me and it may be 8 glasses a day or maybe less but it will do me each day.  Standing on the scale is not for me as it just brings up the obsession once more, and I was seriously obsessed from binging and purging to weighing in three times a day and more that just needs to be let go of. 

Wow, felt really great to get all that off my chest.  Figuring out what works best for me at my age of 66.  As to my hands and how they swell - that is when I overdo on games and apps and such and it is time to lay off of a lot of those time wasters at least for me.  

I am still going to check in here on my blog about once a week as I like getting what seems to be rattling around my head onto paper and out of the loop in my head.  Catch you next week!

And that is completely OKAY - lol

 

Hey There - Time to Catch Up

 

Our Mother's Day and Father's Day gift

Hi Everyone who stops by.  For the first time in months I have finally felt up to writing.  It isn't that I have been depressed but more like just down and dealing with all that has to be done when someone passes.  

I found that like when we retired and moved down here it was like since all the work stress was gone, well, our bodies said 'time to take care of me' and brought up lots of different things for both of us back then.  

I had totally forgot about that but now that caring for mom, dealing with her passing and settling her estate is nearly done my body is doing the same thing, screaming at me that I better take care of it or I will certainly be sorry.  That includes my hands swelling at the joints with a dash of joint aches and pains at every joint in my body.  At this time I am wearing compression gloves to help with the swelling.  Also a weight gain which always includes lots of heartburn.  I know my blood work was not the best either and it was certainly time to do something.  Once things were fully back in the hands of mom's lawyer was I able to feel that my part was done and I was done with those people who were interested only in mom's estate.  I only have to take in any tax things next year when I get them but that isn't a stressor.  In fact the biggest stress when dealing with someone passing is the bank.  They are so concerned with not stepping out of line that the hoops one must jump through are greater than even dealing with Revenue Canada.

Our anniversary gift

 The issues with my body got to the point I had to take action with both back to food tracking and getting back to walking and exercise.  I found an app that was close to my old SparkPeople tracker called MyNetDairy.  I started it on May 2nd and did pretty good in the start then of course old habits of "I don't want to do this" came up and I took a pause for a week and a half but realized as issues came back quickly that I could not do that any more, I had to track, improve my food choices and get my butt moving once more.  

So far I have lost 7 pounds with the app and that was with a couple of stumbles but I am even more determined now.  Hubby wondered if I told our doctor about my issues and yup, I did and she noted them down and when I said I was managing any pain with Tylenol she just nodded and moved on saying this is what happens when you get older.  The last thing she mentioned was meds for cholesterol and pain both of which have really tough side-effects and I would like to avoid and of course, we all know that the better we eat and exercise the less need for pills there is.  

So, I am back on my healthy journey, which I postponed when I was doing major care-giving.  Yup, I know they say you must care for yourself or you can't care for others but what the don't mention is not having any energy to do so and I didn't.  I was dealing with a lot of mom issues that just reared it's ugly head during that time that I didn't bother with me.  

As you can see those lovely mugs are part of our gift giving this year.  I gave my sister this one (probably will get myself one for my birthday) 

And for both my daughter's birthday, I got this one. 

Thinking next Mother's Day for me perhaps.  I just love the mugs.  Hubby has gotten one brother the mug I got him in January and plans on getting them for the other brothers for their birthdays.  

Although MyNetDairy has a place for blogging I am just going to keep on keeping on here.  Time to refresh and keep going with healing myself.  I have only about 28 more pounds to lose which should take care of the hearburn completely as well ease up the pressure on my joints as well as the other inside stuff.  

So you will probably see me back here a little more often.  With the focus being on healing and lightening up.  

Take care all.

From our Spring Days walks.